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Monday, January 28, 2008

HELLOS:)

it has been a long time since i last updated my blog...kekes^^i was too busy the past few weeks...packing packing packing...unpacking unpacking unpacking....wanna continue posting about ZHU! but i have no time to do that le!so...im not going to post about the chasing...

I love it here in Australia! lots of things had happened tho...but i gonna be strong...cos i dont want a broken family!!!mum almost died...cos she was too angry, when she saw 'her' in the ********...mum fainted, then she could not breathe...we kept crying of course...

25 JAN, was Australia Day!!!my whole family went to the city to watch the fireworks:)
it was beautiful!!!so much nicer than Singapore's! i was very happy, during that moment we shared as a family:)my parents were happy and they did not quarrel...but i should have known better, things always happen like that...when they are outside in public, no quarrel or whatever...but when we got on the car to go home, things happen again...shout shout shout and blah blah blah...when we reach home it got worse...mum shouted something...dad got so angry...he drove the car and left...it was already 11pm...mum went crazy[as usually]...she cried...then say wanna chase after my dad...but her driving skills[oh my tian]...her normal driving already very bad...she still wanna chase, when she was totally out of control, crazy, not stable...she drove out then her car stuck...cos she pulled the wrong thing...it was a very bad night...my older sister could not stand it anymore, she cried...my younger sister cried too...cos she dont understand why my parents always quarrel...she's too young to understand tho...she's only 4...what a bad childhood...i cant cry...cos i have to take care of everything...calm my sisters...call my parents...but im human too OK...i cry when everyone is asleep...if i sat there and cry, nobody will help me/ my family...i got to act strong...support my family...bring everyone back to normal...i hope all these end soon...cos all these started since 1st JAN 2008...every single day bad things happened...and it's all because of 'her'...i dont wanna hate anyone...so i choose to forgive and forget...

the truth is...im not alright here...i wanna hug somebody and cry...i miss xiaoZHU!!!i LOVE him!i wanna buy his gaiban ablum...he got two gaiban ablum!!!i wanna buy!!!!!!

i miss my bestfriends and friends...

but i never regret coming here...even though nothing bad will happen if we did not come here...everything will be fine...a happy family...i was hoping for family life here...but it turns out like that...but coming here makes me realize that nothing is prefect...and lots of things will happen in life...without any warning...and a happy family does not last forever...im being too naive thinking that way...coming here may be a wrong decision...but it gives me a chance to live in a different environment...and experience things that i never had before...so...i Love it here...

...she reveals*